February 2, 2017

Post Natal Depression, The Baby Bible

Fellow No Bull Mums Speaks Up about PND for Time to Talk Day

I’m no blogger or writer but I just wanted to share my experience of PND with you all

 

Gina and her two beautiful Tiny Humans xx

 

When my eldest was born she was early. 12 weeks early so she spent the first 96 days of her little life in NICU (shout out to all the nurses and doctors #respect) and I spent those 96 days as glued to her incubator as the staff would allow. When she came home she came home with low flow oxygen and the tubes and wires made everything a little less motherly and a lot more clinical. We bonded, we laughed, we made friends at mother and toddler groups. We fought for consultations with specialists when we felt there were issues and we grew.
 

Sisterly love x

Time went on and in the spring my eldest came off her oxygen and daddy said we deserved a night out to celebrate. A few cocktails a positive pregnancy test later I worried myself sick through the next nine months and five days.
When they handed me my youngest after delivery I was over come with grief. Why hadn’t I had this experience first time round, who was this little alien covered in gunk on my chest and why was she looking at me with those I need you eyes. And then I was rushed to theatre with a haemorrhage. Fun!
 
So when we finally met again daddy had dressed her in the babygrow I had dreamed my eldest would have her first snuggle in and I cried.
 
I cried like the rain for six solid weeks in isolation after that.
Daddy even sent us on a two week holiday to my mams missing out for himself on newborn snuggles in the hope my mum would help me feel better. She did and she suggested I see my gp and get some help.

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The pills were such a relief. I could function and look at my baby and finally feel what I missed at the beginning. The connection between us is so strong even now.  

I’m off the meds a year now. My youngest was four in November so i guess what I want to say is no matter how long the struggle the light is there. Keep going and keep believing in yourself xxx 

Note from The No Bull Mum; I have got to now Gina quite well over the last few months through our interactions on Social media and the support she has shown me and my writing.  It is an absolute privilege to share her story and what she has overcome – thank you Gina!

Her story, like all other mums out there battling and coming through their own personal hell with a maternal mental health illness are ones that should be told loud and proud.  These women are to be celebrated and held in the highest of esteem for facing their demons daily and fighting with all the grit and determination they have to kick its ass for the sake of themselves and their families!  Ladies I salute you and and sending you lots of love and No Bull Mum kick ass support!  Love Liv #thenobullmum xxxxx

 

Lets keep the conversation going!  If you would like to share your own experiences then please pop over to The No Bull Mum Facebook page or send me an email olivia@the-baby-bible.com.  Heres to supporting ALL Mums – NO Judgement!